(Source: cutesy)
Guys I wrote something!
I wrote this to vent my heartache basically.
p.p1 {margin: 0.0px 0.0px 0.0px 0.0px; text-align: center; font: 12.0px Helvetica} p.p2 {margin: 0.0px 0.0px 0.0px 0.0px; text-align: center; font: 12.0px Helvetica; min-height: 14.0px} span.s1 {letter-spacing: 0.0px}
Is it the rain of everyday
that has increased its volume?
Music doesn’t have the same effect
that it usually has had.
Maybe iv’e been through so much
in so little and short time.
That I don’t even know what language I speak,
or what my position is in this game of life.
I feel I don’t have the strength
to jump up and catch the sun.
And no matter how much I try
I cant even hear my own voice.
I don’t know if iv’e lived ten thousand days,
or one day ten thousand times.
And I add you to my history,
wanting to put you down as a gain,
not a loss.
I need you,
I need you my love.
No matter where you are,
I need your love.
I need you,
I need you my love.
Becuase your’e a part of me,
I need you here.
And its becuase I don’t know how to live without you.
I haven’t learned how.
And I find myself lost,
like a needle in a hay stack.
Like in quicksand,
Im sinking in my lonesome.
I don’t know if iv’e lived ten thousand days,
or one day ten thousand times.
And I add you to my history,
wanting to put you down as a gain,
not a loss.
I need you,
I need you my love.
No matter where you are,
I need your love.
I need you,
I need you my love.
Becuase your’e a part of me,
I need you here.
And its becuase I don’t know how to live without you.
I haven’t learned how.
xoxo-lauren-xoxo asked: Just saw your post about your boyfriend, and I'm sorry to hear it. But if you guys were together for a year and a half and he knew about your trich and everything, then I'm sure your new look just caught him off guard. It def is a very bold and different new hairstyle, but it was a brave decision and probably the most difficult haircut you have ever had. I think this culture relies too heavily on appearances, and maybe he saw it as the beginning of a series of new changes. If he's a good guy I'm sure you'll hear from him soon, and if not' at least you saw his true colors sooner rather than later. If there are any weird typos it is because I'm on my touch haha. But I hope things work out one way or another!
Well now he has decided to move to fucking Portland.
Asshole
Im pretty sure my boyfriend of a year and a half broke up with me today because I shaved my head. Whatever, he was probably a piece of shit anyways.
I shaved my head bitchezz! Ha so this is what I did this morning. I just want a fresh start! I cant pull it becuase its too short! On the bright side my hair isn’t going to be damaged anymore.
Magnetic Therapy
This Wednesday I have an appointment in California for something called Magnet therapy. I have no idea how it works, and frankly im very skeptical haha. I am apparently going to have to go to Cali for maybe 5-10 weeks every Wednesday, so I might just stay there for a month. Im going to let you guys know how that goes…
Almost one day!
The day is still going and I have not pulled!
I have not pulled in half a day! YAY! Instead have been keeping busy by doing this all day.
xoxo-lauren-xoxo asked: Hey I saw that you followed me and wanted to check out your blog and say hello. So hello! :) I read all of your posts and can see this blog is pretty new. Idk if you have a personal blog too or if you are new to
Tumblr but I thought it was really amazing that you were able to present about trich and I'm sorry that your mother's illness caused you to start. It kinda sounds like she (like most people who aren't affected with trich) doesn't understand what this means to you. I hope I'm not offending you by saying that, my point is it really is great to have a place to talk to people who get it when you want to talk. Like me. :) Sorry this ended up so long and personal, just wNtex to
Let you know you wags have my support and my ask is always always open to you or anyone. *end ramble*
Parents just dont understand! haha you’re not offending me at all because tis’true! I wish you well in quitting! WE CAN DO THIS!
le-mot-du-jour asked: Hey there! Thanks for the follow! I suffer from trich as well, so I understand how hard it is to deal with. I saw your post about biting nails and I have been doing that since I could chew, they're pretty messed up by now :P The trich I started later, back in middle school, and it's been and on and off struggle for the past 8 years. But we are beautiful people, and we can get through it! <3
If you ever need anything or want to talk about dealing with trich, just let me know!
Thanks you so much! I think its important for us trichsters to talk to one another!
